(this is for 3th and 4th of October)
I'm so sad. I'm so frustrated.
Finally I cried.
These 2 days were the worst days.
Gloomy days.
I didn't see him at the match because I was too late. I had been finding him for a long time. I was so tired. And at last nothing happened.
And at that night he didn't go to the playground too.
In that evening I didn't see Endless Noise.
Then the next day, it was the most boring comic show I've ever seen.
Well the main cause was him, I knew it exactly.
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Anyway it has passed.
On 4th afternoon, I phoned him on my way home on the bus.
He wasn't there, his dad answered the phone. Wow it was such fun to talk with his dad!
But I was a bit disappointed. He was still in the basketball match! I went there again today but I didn't know that he was still in the match!
And, I lost in the place I knew.
I thought it was the worst day I've ever had.
But...
Finally I was back home. My dad told me someone called me just now.
I checked the number, it was from Money's home (Water's bf).
Well I thought maybe Money wanted me to help him.
But when I called back, Money said that LT was looking for me. So I asked how I could find him.
Then LT came, he was at Money's home.
Hey!
It was his voice.
Then we talked. He said sorry. Then suddenly all the angry words I wanted to say disappeared.
And yesterday noon, I felt very sad again.
Suddenly I felt all the dreams had broken.
Tears kept falling.
Then he phoned me again.
We had been silent for 30 seconds. But exactly I could feel him there.
Then I asked, why don't you say something?
He said, so why don't you?
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I wanted to talk with him. I really wanted. And I wanted to see him again.
I don't know. I just don't know. I don't wanna know.